Around November 3rd or 4th, I got a headache that I could not shake. Having a family history of aneurysm, I had already been advised to have an MRI with contrast done before I reached 35 years of age. Because we were in Korea at the time and the difficulty I had in getting it done, I put it out of my mind. After about three weeks of this headache, I went to my primary care physician who ordered a series of MRIs (5 standard images and 3 with contrast injected). The scans were run on November 20th...and then we waited. The Sunday before this last Thanksgiving, the doctor called my house to tell me they saw no aneurysm, but they'd found a tumor. Although I was expecting family for the upcoming holiday, and we live on a farm, I was told to take it easy and advised to not lift anything heavier than a gallon of milk. The horses still must be fed, the ducks and chickens still required attention, the pygmy goats could not feed themselves...I did not heed the advice I was given, but put my faith in Him who is the great healer. I told myself from the beginning that whether He healed me on earth, or took me Home for healing, I would exalt Him above all else. November 26th, I went in for another series of tests that would focus on the pituitary gland (where the tumor was located) and they would perhaps be able to determine the size of the tumor. In another call, the doctor said that it is likely this is only a cyst. I scheduled with a neurologist and waited. When I saw the neurologist, he told me that my most recent report stated the tumor was almost 2 inches across and it was very unlikely they could tell how rapidly it was growing after only six days. He told me to go immediately to see an neuro-ophthalmologist to determine how much pressure, if any, this tumor is putting on my optic nerves. Then we slipped into Winter. We had more snow than I can ever recall, an ice storm, and then much, much more snow. I was unable to get out or get scanned for quite some time.
Almost two months later, I finally got to see the neuro-ophthalmologist. He tested my eyes and the results were not great. Fearing I was already losing my right eye and finding a spot on my left eye, he has now referred me for further testing. The scans they've done thus far indicate the tumor has not increased since November 26th. Also, I told the neuro that the other doctor said it is likely a cyst and his response was that they could not know for sure unless they did a biopsy. Today, I wait for more testing, but am confident that God is much bigger than a tumor or a cyst and that He is the ultimate Healer. I have no thing or no one to fear, as He is with me always and He is always good.
